April 6. Water 🜄: Emotions
Cleansing a Gritty Past
I have often had a dream that brought me to a public latrine, a communal restroom, with toilets, showers and sinks available. However, a once sterilized and sparkling space is now laden with filth, mold, stench and feces. Not one inch is worthy of use. There is no clean water and no clean surface. I am repulsed and searching for purification, to be cleansed of my own degradation.
It’s okay. We all have a past with regretful memories. These are lessons and sources of balance for us. A regrettable history is the shadowy part of our divine experience here. Without the difficulties, we would never understand the glory of our joy, safety and love; the world would be sterile, bland and boring. Our struggles provide a lens for all the ways we grow as survivors. This dream tells me that I am still searching for a way to be free of that which harms me, and the undeniable disease of my internal realm. We all need a psychically clean space to stop any disease from spreading.
Related Expertise
“The process seems simple enough, but wound healing is actually quite complicated and involves a long series of chemical signals. Certain factors can slow or prevent healing” (Johns Hopkins, 2023).
Inspired Action
Clean your bathtub (or borrow someone else’s), then fill it with very warm water, and any salts or herbs your skin finds healing. Get in and all the way under. Let your face float up to the air above. Listen to the silence with your ears under the surface. Listen for the drips and swishes of the water. Notice your breath. Stay until the water is luke warm. Then remain there while the water sinks into the opened drain and imagine all that you carry, and all that you wish to release moving down the drain, away from you. Be still and quiet. Then dry yourself and bundle up in clean, soft clothing. You are healing. You are learning to be free.
