April 9. Earth š: The Body and The Mundane
If it hurts, return to Source.
Sometimes people get annoyed with me. And sometimes when they find me particularly intolerable, they might smile and get real quiet. I ask if everything is okay, they say, āYes, everything’s just fine.ā Then I know for sure that they are unhappy and afraid to tell me. You see, I can feel that everything is not just fine, and then I get a little scared and confused and even angry.
When people take a long time to confess what disturbs them, I sink into such a state of angst, I go straight to shame. It must be true that I am a ridiculous human being, and I think that my behavior is so bad, they cannot even be honest about it from the start.
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āA lot of the time, these criticisms are not an accurate reflection of you but a projection of whatever the other person is struggling with. But if seeking approval from other people is your primary source of self-esteem, then it can be difficult to realize this and not let judgmental comments get you downā (Woolfe, 2018).
Inspired Action
When you feel like turning in on yourself, like deciding that you are unworthy of tolerance or grace, then you are sunk. We must detach from our loved oneās experience and see that anotherās intolerance is far more about the story in the accuser’s own head than an accurate measurement of you.
You are lovable, and you are okay, even if your behavior meets disapproval.
Go to the earth and get grounded. Stand on the soft grass, or a smooth path, or sit comfortably with soft ethereal music, and take a long deep breath. Say out loud, It is okay. I know that I am enough. I have a divine source of well-being within me. I am only learning what behaviors are troublesome for others.
